It had to happen eventually. I took the week off from being a home school mom that works to be a working mom. I traveled to the company headquarters for work this week. I had to get dressed and wear shoes every day. It actually mattered that I fix my hair and eat my breakfast early in the day. I spent all day every day talking to grown ups about work. In addition to my usual work, I had meetings, met with people that I've worked with for years and never met, and shared ideas. I had all of my meals prepared by someone else and ate with grown ups. I didn't teach a lesson or correct manners, math or grammar all week.
Every night, I hurried back to the four star hotel after a nice dinner so that I could read and talk to the girls before they went to sleep. I got up early so I could talk with them before I went to work.
Despite the hard work and long days, I couldn't help but think of how nice this kind of life is. People listening to me. Looking nice. Feeling smart. At the end of the week, I was lonely and wanted to be where somewhere loved me most of all. I'm really glad that I can give up "all of this" and go back to my real life. I made the choice years ago to be there for my kids. I've never regretted that choice. They're worth it.
However, I had a fun week. It was probably the most fun I've had at work in a long time. It was good to be at the company office and feel like I was a contributing member of this LARGE organization. I think it was just what I needed to help me remember why I never quit work and remember why I work so hard to make this balance work.
I appreciate both sides of my life.
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