19 April 2009
What you find late at night
Since I work until the wee hours of the morning, I have spent lots of time scraping ice off of my car. When it is 10 or more degrees below zero, my fingers start to get numb and hurt even inside my gloves, and my ears will go numb before I feel them get cold. I have had my doors freeze shut from 12 hours of sleet freezing on them. For the last couple of months, I have tried to not complain when I am scraping the ice and to find some way to enjoy the moment.
Friday night, I think I finally achieved what I have been working towards. As I brushed and scraped the windows, I started to notice the large, downy flakes falling around me. I noticed how there were distinct layers of snow on the car that varied in texture. I enjoyed the full quiet that you get at 2am when the snow is falling and the world is asleep. I even dug in the car to find the camera to try to capture the moment.
I had known there was something here to enjoy if I just tried to find it. My life is made of little moments. I can't control whether the snow freezes on my car, but I can control my attitude toward it.